As far as this is a blog about Kat and daddy mummy Kat, I am dedicating this post to my grandpa that I just lost this morning, 5 August 2014, 3.03am. I expected myself to be bawling my eyes out the moment I hear this news but it seems that I am awfully calm from what I expect. Went on to work as usual, was busy like mad, only times like lunch, on the way to work that I could feel the pulsing sore-ness at my heart from the heartbreak. Maybe it’s the busi-ness at work that is keeping the sadness away, or maybe it’s the fact that I am trying to not think too much.
My grandpa is definitely my favorite grand parent of all. Why? Because he is the one that I had deep memories of him sending me to school during nursery, protecting me from the beggars by the street that I was so afraid of, carry me up the slope and stairs when the little me was too lazy, go cycling with me when he visited Singapore, play the arcade with me when I was growing up, listen to my little stories, etc. Almost all my childhood memories had him.
My decision to go back to Hong Kong for university was also partly because I wanted to spend more time with my grand folks. I am very thankful to have gotten the chance to spend some simple dinner time with him and grandma once every few weeks, get him a birthday cake during his birthday, buy chocolates that he love, introducing him to the love of my life and telling him I was pregnant during my final visit when I was 6mths pregnant with Kat.
The only thing that I did not manage to was to let him meet my little Kat. Now that he has returned to be with the LORD, I hope he is looking at how beautiful a great granddaughter she is and how awfully I miss him already. I am not sure if the last album I made him, he manage to see her photos or grasp the idea of little Kat’s presence, or the little quirky thing I found in Kat. But this is what I said to him. I told him that looking at my father fetching Kat from school and playing with her reminded me of how blessed and happy I was to spend my childhood with him and I was very thankful and glad that Kat was receiving the same happiness and joy with my Dad.
To my Grandpa in heaven by my LORD:
Thank you for being such a happy and important part of my growing up. I am glad to have you as my company and blessed that GOD sent you to be my guardian. Thankful that GOD shortened your suffering and gave you peace. Lastly, I love you grandpa and I will miss you dearly. Till we meet each other in heaven again, it’s goodbye for now.
Mum . Kat . Seth 